“stop holding on, if it’s holding you back, then let it go; your grass will always be the greenest if you let it grow” 🌼🐝🌿
This is one of my favorite pictures that I’ve taken recently. You can find cool picture opportunities anywhere! Example: I took this photo in the garden section of Home Depot, lol. I’m going to do a series of picture posts; I have a ton of pictures to share. I went to upload them all into one post and it ended up being 60+ pictures, so I decided I’ll break it up into multiple posts instead. I’m going to start working on those this week, so that by next week I can start posting them.
Other than these posts, I’ve been feeling a little bit stuck in terms of my blog, my bookstagram, and essentially my life as well. I am trying to get back into bookstagram, but I have no idea what kind of pictures to post and what theme I want to go for. When I first started my bookstagram I had so many ideas and I was having a lot of fun with it. I guess since I haven’t really been doing it consistently over the last couple years, I forgot and lost my creativity with that. With the blog, I’m not sure what kind of content I should post. It’s kind of frustrating!
I think when I start to feel uninspired is usually when I quit things and I don’t want to quit blogging! I actually really love it and love all the friends I’ve made and continue to make every day, but sometimes I feel like I’m boring everyone with the same content over and over again. You know, it’s not even just blogging and bookstagram. I have an online journal that I write about things happening in my life (it’s more of personal journal and I’ve been using it since I was in high school) and I really have nothing to write in my own personal journal either.
I think it has more to do with how I’ve been feeling about myself lately. I have all of these negative feelings (and thoughts) about myself over the last 3-4 months that I’ve never had before. It’s so weird experiencing this because I used to always think so highly of myself. Now I question whether that was even real or if I was pretending/lying to myself all my life. The end months of 2019 messed with my self-confidence and shattered who I thought I was. I only feel like a fraction of who I was before and that scares me! I want to get back to my old self, where I was always positive and always happy. I want to get out of this negative headspace. Some days I think I am finally out of it and then others I feel right back in there. Sigh.
I’ve been obsessed with this song “Hangnail” by Rationale. I feel like I relate to it a lot lately. I just feel down about myself and my life these days. Here’s the song if you’re interested: https://youtu.be/O9sTYRUkSHc
“I wish I had this poetic poise, an articulate finesse.
I’m too clumsy and the words escape me.
I’m hazy and any passing thought can displace me.”
I think this negative headspace; these thoughts and these feelings are pouring into everything in my life, including blogging. I think this is where so much of my “stuck” feeling comes from too. Maybe I can Google search some ideas for both bookstagram and my blog and see what I can come up with! I did bookmark an awesome blog post from Kelly from Another Book in the Wall about “how to blog when you haven’t read anything new“, so I may also go back and reference her post to get some ideas as well. Anything you guys want to see on my blog? It doesn’t have to be book related!
Here are my social media accounts if you’re interested in being friends outside of the amazing blogosphere. I usually post regularly on my personal Instagram account.
Goodreads: heyyitsashley_
Twitter: whoa_itsashley
Pinterest: lalalaitsashley
Instagram: heyyitsashley – personal Instagram account
Bookstagram: foreverbookish_ – book Instagram account (underscore after “bookish”)
I will catch up with all of your posts and reply to comments later today or possibly tomorrow. I’m really hoping to try and get some reading in today. 🙂
In case you missed it;
Andy Reads|| Maybe Someday.
March TBR (Maybe).
Wrap Up|| February.
I hope you have a great day!
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I think you have to not worry about what others want from your blog, etc. and go with what inspires you or what content/books you’re excited to share. Make yourself happy and your joy will bring people to your posts.
I definitely relate to that stuck feeling. It’s one of the reasons why I always insist on taking a break from my blog even when I don’t think I need it. Sometimes it helps me come back with fresh eyes. I’ve been on Instagram for less than a year but it is so easy to lose that motivation. There are times when I feel like I’m bursting with ideas for photos and other times when I just can’t find the motivation to post anything. I hope you find a way to keep blogging and that that stuck feeling passes because I would hate to see you leave blogging but totally understand if that’s where life takes you. Wishing you the best.
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Feeling stuck is such a frustrating thing.
One thing that helps me when I’m in that headspace is to try something new and a little out of my comfort zone. It could be trying a new restaurant, sport, style of music, event, or whatever it is that you’re willing to give a shot. It could be free, inexpensive, or a little pricy for your budget. You can blog about it, but that’s not necessary if it’s too private to share with the world. 🙂 All I know is that there’s something about shaking up my routine that helps my blogging ideas flow again.
Speaking of blogging ideas, would you be interested in writing a post or two about your non-bookish hobbies/interests/passions? Or maybe a day in your life sort of post? I find it really interesting to get to know the people behind book blogs.
I totally understand that you’re frustrated. And I’m sorry that you feel so stuck.
You know, I really like reading personal posts so you can get to know the blogger a little more. Posts like this, although I really don’t like that you’re not feeling great. Also, those posts with pictures that are coming? I can’t wait!
And if you don’t get out of that stuck feeling, it’s ok to pause for a while (or forever). The people who love your blog (like me!) will be there when you decide to come back 🙂
I hope you feel like your positive and happy self soon ❤
Ashley… wow, love, I am experiencing the EXACT SAME THING. I read this and nearly every single word resonated. Especially with the “was that real confidence?” …. When I started questioning things and doubt my perception it kills my creativity and silences me. I actually have been wanting to write a post about it too, but it’s hard to even collect my thoughts- but you described it SO well. I don’t wish this on you, but I’m comforted to also know I’m not alone because it’s tough to even explain or even understand ourselves. I don’t have any really great advice, but I can tell you this- your blog and posts are AWESOME. You are genuine and adored around here. I think this type of time is just a sign of change, transition, learning… it’s extremely uncomfortable, but I think you will find your “new normal” in no time. And it’s okay to take a step away if you need it ❤ I hope this all makes sense, and I interpreted what you meant correctly — thank you sooo much for sharing.
Oh Ashley I’m so sorry you’ve been feeling that way. I can relate to feeling that way a whole lot and I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this lately. I hope that you’ll find your way out of this and, about blogging and everything, what matters the most is that you feel the joy and inspiration and that little spark when you’re writing. If you’re not feeling it, at the moment, it’s also good to take a step back, a couple days back, to come back refreshed with it all ❤ Remember the little things about blogging that made you happy, maybe think about changing things up, posts or layouts or designs, maybe that could help, too. I'm always here if you ever need to talk, about blogging or anything else Ashley and I hope you'll feel a little better soon. I'm sending you all the love and positive vibes ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
I love that photo and where ye took it! I love all yer posts cause they just seem to be so you. I am sad yer stuck. Crappy place to be. I just got unstuck after a rather long journey. I have no practical advice then hang in there and take breaks from blogging and creating content if ye don’t feel like it. I currently can’t read due to me headspace but I am enjoying reading about others readings. Weird but true.
x The Captain
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