Random|| Life Update.



So I think I am battling a reading slump, which totally sucks! I was flying through books this month. I was making pretty big progress with my June TBR (check it out here). I read seven books (most were graphic novels) and then finished another that I had started in May. That’s eight books I read at the beginning of this month and I read them so fast too and I think I burned myself out, to be honest. My current read Love, Hate, and Other Filters goes back to the library in SIX DAYS and I am not anywhere near to finishing it, because I haven’t been in the mood to read. I am really enjoying it too and that makes it worse, in my opinion.

I also have things happening in my life that are taking over brain space. My mind is elsewhere. I’ve even neglected finishing some school stuff, ugh. I have a lot of things that need to happen in such a short amount of time. I try to stay composed though and realistically, I probably brush off a lot of important things. If things don’t make me happy or things I don’t want to do, then I tend to ignore doing those things for as long as possible. I also have this mindset that whatever happens, happens. I mean, that’s a pretty good mindset…to an extent. It’s good for things that are not really in your control. What’s happening now was totally in my control…


I am a huge procrastinator, not going to lie. Example: I’ve known I was going to be moving for probably almost a year now and I have done nothing to move the process along to make it go more smoothly. I have three months now and….I’m fucked? Everyday I procrastinate things and then things happen that are no longer in my control and my trusty (not full proof, by the way) motto pops into my head “whatever happens, happens”. So when I say my mind is elsewhere, it’s on what the heck am I going to do about moving?

Where? How? How much is this going to cost? Savings? What savings? Things come up and there goes the savings. What about all the crap the hubby and I own? We own so much damn stuff, ughhh. What happen to minimalism this year? I had plans to toss pretty much all our stuff this year… <— I put that idea to the side and decided i’d come back to it later the next day after thinking it. I have four animals, who’s going to rent to someone with three cats and a dog? I’m sure there is ways around this, but I get paranoid they’ll find out and then we’ll be screwed. BLEHHHH. Life.

What about work? I am socially awkward (hence my blog name) and I also have MAJOR social anxiety…so the fact that I have to talk to my boss about potentially moving away but still REALLY wanting to keep my job is freaking me the hell out. I have the type of job that I can do it from home if needed. I have panic attacks thinking about this. If he says no, then we have to stay here; in this expensive city that realistically we just can’t afford anymore. Or if my boss says no and we still move to the cheaper city that I really want to move to, what am I going to do about a job? I can’t talk to people. SOCIAL ANXIETY SUCKS. I can’t handle finding a new job. Even thinking this is a possibility is scary as hell!

So what do I do when I can’t handle things? I pretend this is all a non-existent thing in my life and go about my life; doing whatever it is that I want to do instead of what I NEED to do. Sometimes I like to think I work harder (maybe even better) under pressure or a deadline, because I literally have no other choice but to do the work now that there is no time to stall or that word again…procrastinate. That’s not a good way to go about life either, by the way. Everything is a lot easier when you give yourself time to actually do things instead of trying to do a million things in a short amount of time on top of your regular life stuff. It only drives you crazy.


I honestly had no intentions of this post to turn out like this. I was actually going to tell you guys I was in a reading slump and then post pictures that I took while at the park with my sister a couple weeks ago. I am so tired of adulting. Not that I really do much of it aside from pay my bills on time. That’s probably the only thing I got right as far as this adult thing goes. Sometimes I buy vegetables. I think I rambled way too much and I think I needed to just vent this all somewhere.

Anyway, this is part of why I’ve been so MIA on here. It’s also what kick-started this reading slump. I have so many things I need to figure out. I also need to figure out how to get over my fear of talking to my boss, because I really need to do it ASAP. The sooner the better, especially because we need to do know if we’re staying or going. Enough of that though. Here’s a lens ball picture of me that my sister took. I was taking a picture of her taking a picture of me through the lens balls, lol.


I’ll share all of my other pictures soon. I have some from when my sister and I went to a park. I also have some from when we visited our dad and we went to another park. And then a TON more from the last 2.5 months. I’m sorry if I continue to be a little less active for awhile. This post pretty much explains why and also what my life is going to be like the next few months trying to figure all of this out!

In case you missed it;
Book Tag|| Mid-Year Freak Out.
Thoughts|| Be Prepared.
Thoughts|| All Summer Long.

I hope you have a great day!



17 thoughts on “Random|| Life Update.

  1. I’m really sorry about all the stress in your life right now. Everything will work out how it’s supposed to. I completely understand about procrastinating because the stress gets to be too much. I have a tendency to do the same thing. I hope you get out of your reading slump soon and things start to fall into place for you!

    • Thank you. It’s so much easier to ignore all the stress than have to deal with it, ugh. I managed to finish three books over the weekend, so hopefully that means my reading slump is ending? Hopefully! ❤

  2. I’m sorry things are stressful! That’s no fun.
    If you’re in a slump, you should try reading The Kiss Quotient (if you haven’t already). That book was so stinking adorable and subtly sexy. I just finished it and loved it. Maybe it would help! 😉

    • Thank you. I am currently waiting for The Kiss Quotient at my library, but I might end up caving and buying my own copy since the wait time for the book is SO LONG! Happy to hear that you loved it. 😀

  3. Oh Ashley I’m so sorry to hear things have been so stressful for you lately, adulting really sucks sometimes :/ Take good care of yourself and do things little by little, maybe by making a list of small items you can cross of, to try and avoid procrastination, without doing it all at once, either.
    I’m sure that everything will be okay, I’m sending you loads of love and hugs and positive vibes ❤ ❤

    • Thanks, Marie. Yes, adulating really does suck sometimes. Good idea about the list. I should probably come up with a couple lists soon. I think it’ll be easier and also make me feel a lot better seeing myself cross things off a list. 🙂 ❤

  4. I’m so sorry things have been so stressful for you lately Ash! I totally know the feeling and am currently dealing with similar issues that you kind of know about, especially on the job front. It’s so hard being an adult with social anxiety. Makes every single human interaction so difficult. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you that your boss says yes and that you can find a great place to rent! 🙂

    • Being an adult with social anxiety is seriously the worst. It’s so annoying too. Thank you. I think I’m going to talk to him in a couple of weeks. He goes on vacation next week, so when he comes back I think I’m just going to finally bring it up and get it over with. I have a couple weeks to try to prepare myself and what I’m going to say.

  5. Rambling is fine! Venting is fine! Anything for releasing some of that stress… Being an adult sucks; I hope everything will work out ok for you. xxx

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